I trying to love me more each day ..but then like today im battling sadness, my sister and all her children and partners leave for south Africa in less than 24 hours to see our parents. ..I’m not going because it’s dad’s 70th birthday and my abuser will be there with family “man does it fuck me off ” even though I’m this side of the world I’m embarrassed by all that’s happened .

Every one of my cousins will be there ..yes they were apart of the abuse ,my corupted family were sexual abuse was not spoken about but yet I endured it ..GO FUCK YOURSELVES IDIOTS..it’s just horrible feeling 😥