After experiencing some relief Thursday and Thursday evening. .Friday night was filled with nightmares of younger boy who will soon need surgery in the midst of waking I’d pray “the Lord’s my shepherd etc ..and then my mind would fret over my older boy and wondering if this night he was ok ..then a friend I was dreaming about then the horror of my rapes and crying would come !

Im fearful that I can’t have just peace I’m praying tonight I’ll have some and be able to enjoy the day tomorrow with my family seen it’s father’s day!