Author: owningitlog
Intro
When I was a very small child I saw two young gymnast working out. Dressed in white, they gleamed in the sunlight. Their bodies were clean, pure and strong. I witnessed beauty for the first time and it stunned me.
At the age of 57 I have decided to build a physique that embraces that admiration. This has been a lifetime dream. In the age of instagram and selfies, that shouldn’t be a remarkable proclamation. But for me it defies a life of shame and self loathing. What does bodybuilding have to do with childhood sexual abuse? For me everything. The first assault exiled me from my body, my masculine body in particular.
My story is complicated. I ask for your patience as I attempt to examine my experience with sexual abuse. The more I write, the more I share, the more details I uncover. This blog is first and foremost for me to just be free, to break the silence, to reveal the secrets. I also hope it can inspire others to find a way out of whatever life has dealt them. Never give up on the you you’ve wanted to be.
-Brian Dennis
The picture is from the mid-late 80's. One of the few I've always liked, maybe because it is out of focus.
happy? — Owning It
In the sun, between — Owning It
Reluctant Beast — Owning It
Everyday — Owning It
Sometimes | Simple as — Owning It
A riot and a boy — Owning It
Flow ’74, Notes — Owning It
Flow ’74 — Owning It
Post Competition Quikie
This Body — Owning It
Look/See — Owning It
Toddle On — Owning It
Transformation Tuesday — Owning It
Visual Assessment — Owning It
X Weeks Out — Owning It
What now? — Owning It
Long Absence
Brittle Veil — Owning It
a word — Owning It
1970’s Teen Sex Trade — Owning It
Long Whispers – The Walk — Owning It
The Me I Am
Call Back
The way in
Sunspots
Vapor Trail
My Fitness Mission Statement
Strange New World
That Line
The Others
Circle
Unfolding
Working for alchemy
Belief (Keeps Giving!)
Notes on the rape
Binary Stars
Written on me
Sliding Scales
Believe
Funnel
Null
Gateway
Timeline – The Moment
Yes, I do dare — Owning It
Anchor
