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State of mind: Where are we as a Nation? Episode One

Unfortunately the newsletter I received is a month behind, however this is a digital series and maybe missed episode may be available.

Making wrong right

My entire life has revolved around pretending I'm ok and as I grow and years go on I'm left in between the feeling of saying I'm not ok to others but never do I feel like they ok with my... Continue Reading →

Watch Out for Snakes

Art by Rob Goldstein

Art by Rob Goldstein Watch Out For Snakes

Art by Rob Goldstein Comment 12-21-2015

From July to December of last year a narcissist was comment bombing me.

That was when I completed the abstract, Watch Out For Snakes.

I got as many as twelve long diatribes a week and made
screenshots before deleting them unread.

I went through my screenshots tonight and re-read that comment.

It’s pure word salad.

When I first met the narcissist I was drawn to what I wanted to
think was a child like imagination.

On some level I must have known that what I’d met was another
self-centered two-year old that as an adult turns vicious.

I laugh as I read the comment now and yet I have mixed feelings.

The primary symptom of narcissism is the delusional idea that
everyone else must agree that he is obviously superior.

Eventually everyone finds something about the narcissist
to question.

It’s when you…

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wh atma y me an s2 m3

Being mentally ill with depression means that people may not always get me. I've come to accept that. I've also come to accept that it's okay. A lot of the times I don't even get myself. A. Lot. I guess... Continue Reading →

Five Life Principles I’ve Revisited Thanks To Rockband

Hi folks. I'm Chris. And for about 12 years, playing drums has been a significant part of my life. I played throughout middle and high school and went on to play drums in the Marine Band for several years. My parents paid... Continue Reading →

When the Narcissist is Invisible

Art by Rob Goldstein

Abstract Digital Painting                                        We

In this post I use ‘we’ instead of ‘I’ because my subjective experience is that of multiple separate people.

The children of pathological narcissists must blind themselves to behaviors that healthy people consider unspeakable.

Food deprivation, the theft of money, a lack of boundaries, triangulated relationships in which the child must either see the other parent as an enemy or hate the other parent outright, contempt for the achievements of others, the competitive behavior of a child, and the threat of psychological annihilation.

For the narcissist the worst crime is independent thought.

The child has no needs of his own.

He must have no dreams, and no vision of life without the clinging demands of a parent or parent surrogate who is essentially a two-year old with no insight.

The psychological death-blow is that the child must never surpass the parent.

My Mother despised my intelligence and…

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Outwitted  |  Edwin Markham He drew a circle that shut me out- Heretic, a rebel, a thing to flout. But Love and I had the wit to win: We drew a circle that took him in!

An Open letter to Senator Dianne Feinstein regarding Kaiser

Art by Rob Goldstein

Blog for Mental Health 2015

The letter below is based on the letter sent by Andy Weisskoff to Senator Dianne Feinstein and posted to his blog, 90 Days to Change.

If you live California I invite you to use this letter as a template for one of your own.

Senator Feinstein’s contact page is linked from her name.

If you are a Kaiser member who doesn’t live in California I urge you to send an email to your representative with a request that Kaiser meet its obligations to its psychiatric patients. Below is my letter.

Dear Senator Feinstein:

On behalf of myself and federal taxpayers and Medicare and Medicaid recipients who are denied adequate mental health care by Kaiser and thus the opportunity to heal and return to productive lives, I ask the following:

(1) I ask that the Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services (CMS) conduct an audit of mental health services…

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The Narcissist on the Seventh Floor: Part Two

Art by Rob Goldstein

Plebe                                      Plebe

There is no one as compelling as a selfish woman who covertly wants to enslave and debase me.

Thanks to my Mother, contempt is love, greedy emotional neediness is love, destroying my hopes and dreams is love, manipulating to isolate me from all that is good and healthy is love.

I will always let a narcissist back into my life.

But something has changed because I have made therapy my priority.

This is one of the reasons I must be careful about over-extending myself.

Therapy is working, but it’s painful and I use distraction to avoid pain.

In my previous letter to the narcissist on the Seventh floor I changed gender pronouns to distance myself from my rage.

I have a hard time differentiating between my transference projections and what is real.

My therapist and I are working on my rage in treatment; I can see…

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